Weather & relationships!

The sun has been very high in the most wonderful sky the colour of light watery blue, creating a bright sunny summery afternoon, which some how reminds me of summers long ago, when life was easy, when school kicked out at 3pm and the only worry was deciding between a 99 or a Strawberry Mivvi!

The temperature has been around the mid 80's all day and now has just dipped below, well it's 7.30pm so one can expect a little cooling down, but this is the kind of weather I was lead to believe I would enjoy all the time in Southern Illinois. That's right, Matt said I'd have lots of nice weather, hot temperatures and long sunny days to relax and enjoy, he made no mention of the 5 hour thunderstorms with over 3000 lightening strikes, nor did he mention the tornado's, the inland hurricanes, the wind, he also didn't mention infestations of poisonous spiders and other creepy crawlies! Do you think I could sue him under the trades descriptions act? Probably not, but hey, I'm thankful, it has been an experience after all. If I'd been stuck back in blighty all I'd be doing is complain about a blue box, cursing a missing an Eric Clapton gig, wondering when summer was going to start or concerned that we'd already had it. I'd be cycling along the prom in the rain and drinking watered down over priced lager in Legends, I'd be watching telly and wanting to complain about something or other, but not really having the inclination to get off my arse an actually doing it. I'd be thinking of 10 reasons to go to the gym, yet finding 20 excuses not to! I would be showing mock exasperation at the latest revelations regarding MP's expense claims, but sagely nodding to the conclusion that nothing corrupts more the power, MP's = meaningless persons!

Yesterday we went out with Tara and her slightly older brother Zach, first off to O'Charly's restaurant, where, by the amazing combination of fresh stubble, flattering lighting and youthful smile meant that I was 'carded' for the first time since 1987! Yes, the server wanted ID to prove I was over 21 in order to get a pint of beer! I managed to talk her round, using my pure British charm. After that it was off to the local bowling emporium, across the road. I'm not the best bowler in the world, but I managed to score a try, no a goal, no a birdie, no that's not right.......A Strike! That's it, a scored a strike, sadly, it was my only one of the night, but it was a good giggle.

Zach has proposed to his girlfriend after being together around three months and they plan to tie the knot in August next year. I congratulated him, I'm a firm believer in the love at first sight phenomena, and if he's sure she's the one, then I say good luck to him. It's hard enough in this life to find love, true love and find happiness, so when you do you should grab it with both hands and milk it for all it;s worth, or in other words make the most of it, ya never know how long it's going to last!

On the way back from dropping them off at Tara's car, Matt likened relationships to food, you either have something nice and it's great, or you have something and it gives you stomach ache or you spew it back up! Charming! Perhaps that why for the last week and half he's complained of an upset tummy each and every day!!

When Matt and I first got together, we held many long conversations and talked of future plans, dreams and desires. We talked about how we were going to get matching tattoos, similar rings, plan our own civil union. We pontificate the location of our dream home, of the animals that would fills it's walls with love. Now, well, perhaps the honeymoon period is over, he defiantly wont get a tattoo, is going to dye his hair red, refuses to talk about 'me and him' in the future and wont even make plans for the next weekend.

I do wonder sometimes if Matt really wants a relationship, or just someone to look after him? I'm thinking all he really needs is someone to do his laundry, pick up the clothes that he just drops to the floor when and wherever he takes it off. Pick up the wet towels he just throws down regardless of location and do the washing up to stop him swigging from the bottles or cartons!

Coupledom is something that doesn't fill him with pleasure I think, after all he's most happiest when I just blend into the back ground, do the chores and let him play whichever console and whatever game takes his fancy from the time he comes in until the time he wants to go to bed. I asked him to get me an eye wash a month or so ago, when he was working in Wal-Mart as I had an irritation that was making my right eye bloodshot and sore. I waited 5 days, that's 10 different opportunities to bring something back, but did he? Nope. Has he got me any ear drops, to soothe my ear infection, ermm one word - NO! Or how about for our first anniversary? Did I get a card, a present, some flowers? Anything? Did I fuck.......... nothing, not a single thing, romance it would see, has taken a vacation from Southern Illinois! I didn't tell him and nor will I inform him that in a fit in anger and disappointment, burn up the card that I got him to celebrate a year of togetherness. Oh well, never mind, at least I get to enjoy the wildlife and weather! And hey, there's always next year!.

American Idol finale has just been on the box, god it dragged on and on, I was bored beyond belief waiting for the results. Kris, the christian one, took the vote, Adam the gay one, came a close second. Surprised? Nope!